One of my favorite books is “The Things They Carried” by
Tim O’Brien. I used that book with several of my classes and am often known to
just hand out the book to anyone who needs to have it. I was thinking of this book
as I was going through my library and came across two extra copies. It is a
marvelous read and perfect for this holiday weekend. As I sit at my desk with
my curtains billowing in the wind, I thought about the things we all carry that
are important to our lives…our wallets, our bookshelves, our desks, even our refrigerators…these
things tell us and others who we are.
Today, let’s talk about the things on my desk. I sit and
ponder for a moment listening to the silence of the neighborhood. There is an
occasional bark of a dog or a child’s voice, but aside of that, my neighborhood
is quiet. Are we all reflecting? Going to the lake? Reading on a cozy porch? As
the silence deepens into late morning, I sit and look around.
On my desk is the first peony bouquet. My beautiful peonies
bloomed late on Saturday afternoon. I watch the ants for days as they worked
their magic pulling away the sweetness on the buds which cause the flowers to
bloom. These are extra beautiful this year and full of blossoms. As always, I take
out a copy of Mary Oliver’s poem, “Peonies,” to read in the garden. I choose
early morning as dew drops linger on the soft petals, and I am alone with the
garden and myself. Oh, how I wait for these to bloom and fill the empty spaces
of this old house with their fragrance.
On my desk is a small red poppy which I received at the
service on the mound this morning. It also was a quiet morning with blue skies,
a reverent crowd, and a message that makes us all stop to think and ponder. I
go back home and read “In Flanders Fields” by John McCrae. Just reading his poem
brings me to tears, but his life’s story even more so. McCrae was a Canadian
physician. He volunteered for service when Britain declared war on Germany in
1914. McCrae was 41. He wrote these words, “I am really rather afraid, but more
afraid to stay at home with my conscience.” He set up a field hospital in Belgium.
His good friend, Lt. Alexis Helmer was killed there and thus the poem was born.
McCrae died of pneumonia at the British General Hospital in France in 1918.
On my desk is a small key. This key opens the army trunk of
my grandfather, Walter F. Rhoads. My grandfather served in WWI as a young man.
When I was gifted the trunk, I was hoping to find papers or an article of clothing
from my grandfather, but it was completely empty. Perhaps that was just as
well. He never told the stories, and I guess we never asked. The trunk has his
name engraved on it, and I wonder what did the young Walter think when he was
issued the trunk, and where all did it go, and what did he keep in there? Those
answers I will never have, but maybe it is enough to have this trunk with me.
Memorial Day comes and goes. The boats go in the water. The
last of the garden seeds are planted. A bit more paint goes onto the fence. The
bikes are tossed about in the yards where children live and play. The heat goes
up. The ice makers work overtime. We bask in the joy and beauty of late spring
going into summer.
We are still here. We open our curtains and the sky is blue
and the air is fresh. Just because the calendar turns to another day, it is our
job to remember. I put the books back on the shelf with a sigh. I tuck the
poppy into a poetry book, and the key in a small case. And always, if we forget, “In Flanders Fields”
is just a poem away from remembering.
“In
Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between
the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce
heard amid the guns below.
We
are the Dead. Short days ago
We
lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders fields…”
John McCrae
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